Dabbling and Wandering

Literal art in the art of being lost.

I made a note/quick post here in Substack months ago declaring my existence in this space. Letting you all know I’m still lost. Claiming myself as lost and pretty much just owning it as a new way of being that I’m totally ok with.

Psst. I have developed a whole system of understanding being lost based on the last few years of study with coaches, a hypnotist, positive psychology, etc. Had grand intentions of writing a guidebook and explaining it all. So far, I just have notes and notes and one workshop I tried.

Still lost I guess but enjoying wandering around bumping into ideas I’m exploring, art I find inspiring, and things I love to learn. I’m currently working on writing and illustrating some children’s books that feature many of the coaching topics I’ve helped people with over the years.

I’ve decided to share my most recent dabbling in intuition and art. It is something I’m doing for myself, but as the messages are written I think others could find them helpful or inspiring. Maybe. Maybe not. Doesn’t really matter… we are just dabbling and wandering. Looking at the scenery as we meander through the metaphorical woods of life.

The Art…

This is the question and intuitive “answer” from todays exploration:

Everyone seems to be sick or struggling around me. What do I need to know to help?

You are noticing the suffering, the healing, the process of being forced to face their path. No longer can eyes be closed and ears be covered. There are many people that require help but more that need space to hold them through the process of their own becoming. What you are feeling in your overwhelm is your desire to save and rescue. There is plenty to do and that you are doing to offer your support but you can no longer rescue. This is the inner struggle YOU are having. There is also many shades to the idea of struggling. Complaints heard and seen doesn’t mean they don’t have support or care. It’s just a collective voicing of grievances. Step back to see that this is the process to discover the potential they all have within themselves to expand and become. Instead of focusing on the experience they are processing, see the possibilities within them. Share your resources, share and give energy by holding yourself in the energy of healing and expansion. The seeds are sprouting open. They are only beginning to grow. This is not a death - it’s a birth. Messy business either way.

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Explanation of the process:

I use art making with simple materials as a meditative practice. I ask a question before I start as a sort of intention. I try not to think about the question while I create as I am trying not to think but to just follow my creative whims. Sometimes I get little snippets of insight about how the visual information ties into the question. After I finish the mini-art (I spend about 10 minutes creating) I write an answer to the question in a free form flow style. Essentially, I am just writing what pops in my head. Many times I don’t even know what the next word will be as I write down a word or two. I try to to think or fill in the rest of the sentence. I let the words bubble up, writing them down without thinking about the whole sentence or structure.

This is not a perfect process. I find my mind taking over, questioning myself with each word. Finding myself thinking “this doesn’t make sense, is this even a full sentence, how is this an answer…” and on and on. Somehow, at the end when I reread the message it is mostly a coherent wise message. Is this spirit, is this intuition, is this just the ramblings from my own thought patterns and absorbed knowledge? I don’t know.

I do know that I enjoy the process. I know that the messages help me feel centered and calm. I do know that I don’t have to defend this and make it fit anyone else’s belief systems. I’m still figuring out my own beliefs—I don’t have time to convince anyone else. If you want to join along and see what comes out of my meditative, intuitive, creative, spiritual practice, please do. I love open discussion about spirituality, intuition, creativity, and positive psychology and would love to hear your thoughts.